Getting Closer and Closer

I cannot believe that we've shelved our wedding plans more than a year ago, and how the journey back to where we are now. It's really strange, and definitely gives me goosebumps. But if there is one thing I've learned in life, it is that you never know how Life will turn, and that in Love, there are no rules. The best relationships today can take a plunge for the worse tomorrow, and the worse of times can actually spin to something totally different in one swoosh. It's just really strange. So anyway, C and I are back and I think now the relationship is much steadier -- especially in that ONE area which really brought about the problem in the first place -- WHERE in the world are we settling down. This side of the pond? or that?
It's going to be heartbreaking for me to leave the US snd try a new life in UK. Don't get me wrong, the UK is a wonderful country. I love so many things about it. The history, art, culture, the way of life, the beautiful gardens, the stoic dignity of their people and the cool, artistic ways. I love them. I love C so much more now that I have been to the UK three times. But the only thing is, I will have to adjust again to an entirely new lifestyle. Very different from what I am used to. And worse is that the British sometimes can think you weird, but not say anything... just look at you with disdain. I also don't know that I will be able to get a good job while there, and if I cannot keep busy, I may become sad or depressed. And worse, there will be no friends or family around for a support system. I will only have C, and he will suddenly have to deal with me as a "heavy object" -- which I do not want to happen.
However, that said, I cannot imagine my life without this man. And I know whether we move to one side of the pond or the other, one of us is going to have to make a major adjustment. Personally though, I think it is going to be easier for Brits to adjust to American life, than Americans to adjust to British life. It is always less stressful to move from restricted to free, than the other way around.
I am off to bed now. I miss C very much tonight and I am already rambling. This is not good. Blogs shouldn't be like this.